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[Jan. 28th, 2005|11:13 am] |
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This journal seems so full of sadness and anger and hate and tears and i just really hate writing in it anymore, because the second i'm happy it seems i have an entry right after it saying how i hate this or i'm depressed because of this.
NEW LJ:::: thesevitalsigns
muah loved dressedinblue, but add my new one |
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[Jan. 27th, 2005|11:14 pm] |
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
7. Describe me in one word.
8. What was your first impression?
9. Do you still think that way about me now?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. When's the last time you saw me?
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
15. Are you going to put this on your blog and see what I say about you?
thats my entryy =) leave some answerrs, i'll love you like WOAHH. :P if you don't have an lj leave an anonymous comment |
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[Jan. 27th, 2005|09:35 pm] |
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i am pissed at (blank)!(blank) is being such a fucking bitch! i cant stand this! gah! like at lunch (blank) will leave and then (blank) will call and be like why did u ditch me, and (blank) think's they are sooo much cooler and shit and its like fuck you, you need to get over yourself! its so fucking annoying how (blank) always fucking accuses me of what (blank) does themselves. ITS SO ANNOYIING AND I'M NOT NAMING NAMES BUT YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE SO GET OVER YOURSELF FUCKING WANNA BE PREPPY GIRL, THATS ALL YOU ARE RIGHT NOW AND ITS SO ANNOYING, AND THEN YOU EXPECT EVERYONE TO BE ALL SORRY FOR YOU ALL THE TIME, YOU NEED TO SHUT UP. |
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[Jan. 27th, 2005|08:37 pm] |
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| | discontent, only no tears | ] |
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| | tick tock there is a clock and no this is not a song | ] |
I am so drained and tired!
bloo bloo blooo
i am confused still!! help me!...what the fuck is going on now? why don't i understand? tracy lol heeeeelp meh! wait..i like him...he likes me....i guess its whats not happening that is confusing me. very confuddled in le brain. triple merde. but i really like him, :-D
hmm do u have a chill pill 4 me? or some really nice guy. hahahahahhahahhahaaaaaaaaaaa. ack my red bottomosity is appaling even to me! hmm i am so fucking random with people, ok upstairs office after school
((mango sorbet))
Lauren: mmmm this is sooo goood
Me: ooooh can i have a bite?
Lauren: its his
Me:whats his name?
Lauren: ari
Me: hi, ari? can i have a bite of your gelato?
Ari:.................um..haha ok......??
Me: oh thanks **BITE**
Ari: um np
Lauren ****wanders off*****
ok...or how i was asking people why there wasn't a cross eyed smiley cause i was wondering and then i realized how stupid i sounded. cause they have the angry one, and the one where the toungue sticks out but looks stupid... but when you want to make faces at people you cant...awww
anyways, i'm really tired, and am so ...dunno restrained? i feel so cooped up in this house, like i am so big and i just dont fit anymore, i've outgrown the people who live here, i've outgrown the immaturity of this, i've outgrown my bedroom, i'm just too big and i don't fit anywhere here. i don't belong here, with these people this isn't how i should spend my life. and it makes me crazy, like i have to do something or i get all hyper(ish) so i do stupid things, like that really long quiz on my lj, or like i cant stop eating when i'm here cause its just something to do and i get so bored and it makes me so insane at myself, then i get all depressed and my dad grounds me and its all so fucked up and i shouldn't have to put up with it.I can't stand how i'm forced to put up with this. it so fucking screwed up!and it just gets me so mad and angry and then i act so fucking stupid with my friends because i'm really depressed but i act so fucking happy and i just cant stand a bit of it, then when i'm really genuinely happy my dad just fucks around with me until he gets me all sad.
alexa hunter pisses me off.
she cant teach for crap. no one even listens to her class. its such a joke and a waste of my time.
oh and tommorrow i have double math with manar.
happy times these are my lovers
but i only have one bed lover
hahaha
and there is only one shirt/sweater denyer i will ever like to see deny a sweater....except i'm lying, plenty of people i'd like to see deny their sweaters.
because i am in such a mood. haha ha ha haah
i love making a really overdone british accent
WOOOOAHAHHHHHH MELLY!! WE'LL BE BRITISH LIKE THERE'S NO TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love you all. so very much. in my pants
hahahahlmao i saw him today and then i had to pretend i didnt and i kept walking and mandy was like "that was shady". and i was like "how is it shady if i didnt see him?" she eventually saw my point, which i really didnt have
anyways toodles |
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[Jan. 26th, 2005|11:45 pm] |
Dad:"isabelle can you spell moron? m o r o n" " isabelle can uspell uncalled for its one word u n c a l l e d f or
DAD:"i hope u re read this and say i hope my father had something to say to me when he said i was out of line, like he's saying right now, out of line means not behaving within.." |
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[Jan. 26th, 2005|11:44 pm] |
dad:"Go to bed bebell,"
me:"don’t call me that"
dad:"Ok snot faced brat"
me"Hahahahahaha"**continues typing
Dad: **reads what i'm writing**" its got snot hyphen faced"
ME: "Ahhaha fat hyphen loser!" ...that shut him up!
Dad:"some people like to have fun other people like to have an irritating time together go to bed!" |
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[Jan. 26th, 2005|11:42 pm] |
“Can you please smoke outside”
“I’ll smoke outside when I can smoke outside that’s not right now go to bed**leans over w/ cigarette**”
“I was hoping to have a daughter that would like, like me and write a journal about how interesting I was”
Hahahahahaah
Hm so my dad, he likes smoking, and aliens and he likes being late a lot. He likes me to talk to him about lots of things, even though I really find it boring and don’t like talking to him, because he likes aliens, and is scary and ignorant, and he talks to himself a lot, and the dogs, “snot faced brat, can you spell snot faced brat? Its got a hyphen” yep and he yells a lot and grounds me for not eating my vegetables and he really has no clue how to be a dad. Yep he’s reading this right now because he wont leave me alone, he likes to smoke by me and get mad. Its funny. |
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[Jan. 26th, 2005|11:03 pm] |
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FUCKING DAD. FUCK YOU, I HOPE YOU READ THIS YOU FUCKING ASS HOLE! FUCK YOU!!! I FUCKING HATE YOU YOU DESERVE TO DIE AND GO TO HELL AND I HATE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH YOU ARE SO FUCKING IMMATURE AND PATHETIC AND SEXIST AND STUPID AND I HATE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH. i feel so tied up inside like all knotted up and angry and i want to slap him so much. fucking ass. damn it it makes me want to scream and i'm fucking crying this is so fucking messed up. i hate you!!!! i hate you so much you fucking gah!!!!!IT MAKES ME SO FRUSTRATED I WANT TO FUCKING HURT HIM!!!! GOD DAMN IT! WHY IS IT FUCKING LIKE THIS???? |
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[Jan. 26th, 2005|10:38 pm] |
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| | I FINISHED I FINISHED! | ] |
(1) Your gender: (female)
(2) Straight/gay/bi:(straight!!)
(3) Your nickname:(bella)
(4) Want to be:(happy :-D)
(5) Your birth day: (10/15/90)
(6) Age you wish you were:(hmm i'd say 17)
(7) Your height: (5'9)
(9) The color of your eyes: (hazel)
(10) The color of your hair: (blonde/dirty blonde)
(11) Piercings:(none!! not even a little one!!)
(12) Tattoos: (henna....temporary...)
DO YOU...
(13) Smoke: (no)
(14) Do drugs: (um alcohal?)
(15) Read the newspaper: (ahhahahah no.)
(16) Pray: (hahahah no.)
(17) Talk to strangers who IM you:(em..rarely)
(18) Take walks in the rain:(yes!)
(19) Drive: (awww...no.)
(20) Like to drive fast:(in topanga???NO!!!)
HAVE YOU EVER...
(21) Hurt yourself:
(22) Been out of the country: (yep, mexico, hawaii, italy, switzerland emm i forget where else)
(23) Been in love:(yes)
(24) Been drunk beyond comprehension:(nope)
(25) Gone skinny dipping: (hhahhahah yes)
(26) Had a surgery: (nope)
(27) Ran away from home:(yes)
(28) Played strip poker: (hahahah NO!!! when are we going to play that????)
(29) Gotten beaten up: (NOnoonono)
(30) Been picked on: (haahahaha sixth grade sucked ass)
(31) Been on stage: (yeah tons of times)
(32) Slept outdoors: (umm in a tent)
(33) Thought about suicide:(yes)
(34) Pulled an all-nighter: (grr i think six in the morning but then i fell asleep)
(35) If yes, what is your record: (oh..six)
(36) Talked on the phone all night: (em...pretty late...def. not all night)
(37) Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex: ( hahah yes!)
(38) Slept all day: (yes allll day!)
(39) Killed someone: (um no??? what kind of a question is that??)
(40) Made out with a stranger: (um made out..)
(41) Had sex with a stranger: (nope)
(42) Kissed the same sex: (NOOOO unless you count my little cousin and her sticky nose kisses)
(43) Done anything sexual with the same sex:(ew no!)
(44) Been betrayed: (whatever that means)
(45) Broken the law: (um yeah i guess)
(46)Met someone famous: (yeah when i was little)
(47) Been on radio/TV.: (umm don't think so)
(48) Been in a mosh-pit: (nope)
(49) Had a nervous breakdown:(er..like once...it was more of an asthma attack...haha)
(50) Been criticized about your sexual performance:(never bitch!)
(51) Had a dream that kept coming back: (yes it was really weird)
(52) Shoe brand: (er.. tons! i like my converse, and i like american eagle sandals...lots of other stuff)
(53) What are you normally wearing to school/work:(jeans and a shirtie thingie)
(54) Wear hats: (NOOOOO!)
(55) Judge other people by their clothing:(no not at all!)
(56) Wear make-up:(haha yes)
(57) Favorite place to shop:(er.. URBAN!!!!)(i love you guys for coming in there with me ur so great! <3)
(58) Favorite article of clothing:(jeans!!)
(59) Are you trendy: (fuck trendy)
BELIEFS
(60) Believe in life on other planets: (em..no..)
(61) Miracles:(....er...)
(62) Astrology: (wtf, like stars in the sky??)
(63) Magic:(nope, haha when i was little i did)
(64) God: (no)
(65) Satan:(oh yeaaaaaahhhhh surreeeeeeee)
(66) Santa:(hahahahahahahhaahhaahahahhahahaha mebeh..)
(67) Ghosts: (nope)
(68) Luck:(um i think so..?)
(69) Love at first sight:(no)
(70) Yin and Yang:(what??? how could u believe in that?????)
(71) Witches: (hahahahah NO!!)
(72) Easter bunny:( no, unless i get a ton of chocolate, then yes)
(73) Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever:(um...no..)
(74) Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow:(hahahahahahahahahhaha)
(75) Do you wish on stars: (i used to!)
(76) Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title:(seeing what as a section title? what are you talking about? you're both pointless and insane)
(77) Do you remember your first love: (em...it was like preschool and i had like five boyfriends...no...hahaha my mom has pictures of my boyfriends!!!)
(78) Still love him/her:(hahahahah yeah...my first preschool love...madly in love with them)
(79) Do you consider love a mistake:(no!)
(80) What do you find romantic: (hmmmm haha this sounds so corny! the beach when the sun is setting, or ohhh in hawaii horsebackriding on the beach when the sun was setting and the fireflies coming out and riding back and it was so beautiful, oh my god i loved it!)
(81) Turn-on: (hmmm...sexy stomach(((the sweater the sweater!!)))
(82) Turn-off: (umm ... if theyre big enough to share..that was mean..)
(83) Do you base your judgement on looks alone:(omg no! hahahahahhaahhahahahahahahahh rachel inside joke!!!)
(84) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out:(nope i like it like this)
(85) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive: (yep, only they werent ugly, just not like hot...)
(86) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking: (how would i know??)
(87) What is best about the opposite sex?: (hmm umm let me think...HOT-NESS ((the sweater!!!))em lots of things, guys aren't bitchy like girls and i like having guy friends)
(88) What's the last present someone gave you?: (drrrrk drrrkk i can't remember...em the earings from rachel? or no jeans from my mom..i dunnoooo)
(89) Are you in love: (no)
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
(90) That you laughed at:(laughed at or with? laughed with... damn what is this? i laughed at gorby when he was on Tylers computer... i laughed at my dad for being tres pathetique)
(91) That laughed at you:(er......wow i can't remember)
(92) That turned you on:(hahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahhahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa)
(93) You went shopping with:(my cousin Rudy, ciao bello)
(94) To disappoint you: (my dad)
(95) To ask you out: (hahahahahahahahaha)
(96) To make you cry: (my dad)
(97) To brighten up your day:(kelsey!)
(98) That you thought about:(how the fuck would i know who thought about me??? retards)
(99) You saw a movie with: (.........hahahaha...Rachel, Max, Caitlin)
(100) You talked to on the phone: (rachel)
(101) You talked to through IM: (Caitlin)
(102) You saw:(er... my dad?)
(103) To kiss you:(hahahahahahahahahahahahaha)
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU
(104) Smiled: (er...genuine smile? em i guess in Rnd w/ mehlia and kelsey)
(105) Laughed: (at my dad)
(106) Cried: (my dad)
(107) Bought something: (candy!!)
(108) Danced:(wow....the last time i danced...RACHELS HOUSE!! WE WERE ONE TWO STEPPING AND FUNKY CHICKENING!)
(109) Were sarcastic: (probably like five minutes ago)
(110) hugged someone: (...kelsey? i think...)
(111) Talked to an ex: (long time ago)
(112) Watched your fave movie: (haven't watched movies in forever)
(113) Talked on the phone: (hour ago)
(114) Listened to the radio: (... yesterday?)
(115) Watched TV: (god like... weeks ago)
(116) Kissed someone:(yesterday i think?)
(117) Helped someone:(hahahahahhahahha)
(118) Sang: (every day!)
(119) Said "I love you": (um today)
(120) Got drunk: (damn, it was like a couple weeks ago)
(121) Had sex: (haha oh every night baby)(u have my number **wink**) |
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[Jan. 26th, 2005|10:21 pm] |
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hmm the thing is i really can't stand him. its like when were alone, just the two of us, he is all i looooove you isabelleeee, howww was your day darling? and then five minutes later we get home and he decides i'm just a worthless piece of crap. i really can't stand him at all. Then its like he expects me to love him and listen to him, and he seriously thinks that he loves me and that i love him. i don't fucking understand him. to him i'm just a fucking "woman" and i'm a spoiled little brat who needs an attitude adjustment, but he needent worry, because its just a faze i'm going through and if he grounds me enough i may grow out of it. well he's fucking wrong. I'm leaving here as soon as i fucking turn seventeen. at sixteen at least i'll be able to drive and i can get out when i want. he is a fucking phsycopath hippy and i can't stand his fucking guts. i hate him. so fucking much i just hate him. He makes me so fucking depressed and makes me hate myself, and i just don't want to be here anymore i need to get out of here. non amusant. i really wish he would let me leave, but theres nowhere to go. hahahahahahaha ok, once i got really mad and i just left. i just walked away. we were at my sisters soccer game, and it was like 24 and Idaho, and i just took off. i walked and walked for hours, it must have been like four hours, and i didnt have a cell phone so i called my mom on a payphone and she freaked out. then she came and picked me up, and that was it. that was fucking it. MY FUCKING SO CALLED DAD DIDN'T TRY TO STOP ME, DIDNT FUCKING WORRY ABOUT ME, DIDNT CALL DOESNT FUCKING GIVE A SHIT. FUCKING ASSHOLE. i wish he would just go away and never come back he can go live with his other hippy friends and smoke pot all day and drink and go clubbing because thats all he does anyways. he doesnt have to drag me into this shit. i don't need more drama in my life its all bull shit. all of it. i hate him. i hate him i just want him to die. i just want to leave. this is so fucking messed up. so fucking messed up. |
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[Jan. 26th, 2005|10:09 pm] |
au contraire, i aime you very much, ooer! haha funny story time::::::::
Dad: what are you doing love
Me: reading.
Dad: **stares…. Glares***what do you mean reading??
Me: what do you think….durrr I dunno……
Dad: ISABELLE. Once you learn to resolve your anger issues you will have a much easier path in life, than not.
Me: dad can you go away you’re really annoying, see I’m trying to READ, you know, with books and all….??
hhahahahah new funny story::::::
Phone rings
Dad: **looks at phone**
Phone rings again
Me: dad who is it??
Phone rings again
Me: Dad! Who is it?? It might be one of my friends, whats the number??
Phone rings again
ME: DAD!!!
Dad: its your mother
ME: well answer it!!!!!
Dad: **grimaces** hello. Hi Julie. **makes a disgusted face** no. no. no she’s asleep. Yes I’m sure. Here is your other daughter. **looks at phone as if it is a dead animal** **hands me phone**
Me: dad you are so immature.
Dad: ISABELLE!! Be QUIET! Don’t talk to ME like that!
Me: you be quiet, shut up.
Dad: Don’t TALK to ME like that! You’re already grounded this weekend! BE QUIET!
ME: bee quieeet… hahahahahaha
Dad: **storms off** Don’t get yourself grounded even longer! DON’T TALK BACK!!
hahahahah tres amusant! so pathetico! muahahah new story::::
Dad: don’t get in the trash.
Dog: **stare**
Dad: NO! don’t get in the trash, bad dog!
Dog: ***Stare***
Dad: or go ahead, get in the trash, see where that gets you.
Dog: **stare**
Me: ahahahahahhahahahha snort ahahahahahhahahahaha
Dad: **glare** **walks off into another room**
Dog:**goes and gets in trash**
Dad:****bobs back in and aims kick at dog but hits table instead*** NO in trash!!!! **leaves room**
Dog:***goes in trash**
muaahahahhahah beaucoup pathetique no? Triple Merde. and a half. oh crumbly knees extraordinaire! |
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[Jan. 26th, 2005|06:05 pm] |
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[Jan. 26th, 2005|06:01 pm] |
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TRES AMUSMANT
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ZE TRES AMUSMENT IN LE PANTALOONS
HAHA JK |
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[Jan. 26th, 2005|05:46 pm] |
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it IS tres amusment!
ok tracy this is to you:::
THE SWEATER!!!! THE SWEATER!
deny the gray sweater! take advantage of the baked mahn! The cat will twich when the baked word is said!
In acting Gorby is on Tylers mics on his computer and they're arguing wether or not he's a guy. Now they're trying to find out his pornstar name. fishalish-summit ahhahahahaahahhahahahahahahahaha Tres amusment!!
....mine is kitty paradise though.... hahahaha
Now they're telling Gorby to go talk to a squirrel....Phillip West is going to beat gorby up...thats what he says..gorby doesnt know that he's a teacher...he thinks he's a senior.....Now he's telling Gorby that he's in trouble for using profanity....
this is so weird... we aren't even rehearsing cause zach isnt here...
wow....
LaurenAlice is putting her whole phone in her mouth...thats how small it is......i love u guys
byee
deny the sweater... teehehehehee |
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[Jan. 26th, 2005|03:54 pm] |
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tres amusmant...NOT |
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[Jan. 26th, 2005|03:08 pm] |
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mr.brightside
you know, its like people say you're so immature and its like they don't even know you, but they automatically assume you are. Or they think they know you, but sometimes you act happy or tired or silly and they assume thats who you are. And we all are a little immature no matter if they say they aren't.
I think i really like him, and i think i want to go out with him, and i am still confused, and i have no idea what i'm confused about which makes me more confused! i just hope he still wants to go out with me. |
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[Jan. 26th, 2005|09:55 am] |
i think there is something wrong with me!! now he wants to go out with me but i don't know if i like him! i'm just so confused right now, maybe i'll just go out with him and then if it works out great, if not then at least i know what would have happened. part of our convo. went something like this...i'll call him.....umm...hahaha MEXICO!!! (lol in science class right now and Stephanie is talking about mexico... don't ask) so anyways:
mexico: so now that i like you, and you like me, and i'm finally ready to go out with you, you don't want to go out with me?
Isabelle(me muahahah): no its just that....umm.. well i'm really confused right now....
mexico: yeah.. i can tell...
Isabelle: haha....well its just we never talk anymore
mexico: well we will then
muahahah i have to go watch us being eaten alive by parasites thanks to stephanie, toodles |
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[Jan. 24th, 2005|10:10 pm] |
muahahahahhahahah
muahahahahhahahahaha
muaahahahahahahhaha
lol..this is tres amusing actually |
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